Sunday, November 18, 2007 ♥
4 in the morninqyesyesyes,i slept around 4am this morninq
& im damn feelinq tired now :)
tell you why i slept this late..
i wasnt really satisfied abt my birthday
i tried t act as if im happy about it
but i still dunt felt so.
it's all because i was waitinq for his wish.
jim's
actually i mind alot if he wishes me or not
cus i'd done much for him on his !
but he didnt wish me at all.
last niqht abt 11.30
i smsed him
今天是我的生日.. :(he didnt reply.
i tried t call him but no one pick up.
it's nearly 12 & i felt so scared
im afraid that he wunt remember.
then it's after 12,
not my birthday anymore
he still didnt reply.
i was so sad..
he forqot abt me..
so so so..
i cried aqain :D
& so qod damn
this lead t me havinq asthma attack. D:
i tried t cool down myself
but im still breathinq difficultly.
so i waited,
t see if i would qet better later and qo t sleep.
at 4,
i finally cant tahan and i went t take medicine. :)
haha, i felt so stupid laaa
zhao zhi dao jiu bu ku le :D
this morninq,
i tried t online
he's on too.
so i asked if he received my msq or calls.
he said his phone kena confiscated ! = =
den he asked what i msqed him
at first i told him nothinq important
but later on i said it was my birthday.
he said he knows
then he asked if i want t know the reason for him not wishinq me
of cus i said yes.
he said he thinks that wishinq me happy birthday must with present
& he dunt have money t buy any for me now
he wanted t tell me abt it
but he dunt have his phone with him.
i dunt know if he's tellinq lies
but i wanted t forqive him
he said i must be damn disappointed
i told him it wasnt his job t wish me happy birthday
he said he would qive me the present tqt on xmas.
popo,
by the tym i'll be back, you see? :')
i wasnt disappointed,
i was sad.
i dunt want him t forqet me
he can live his life without me aside
but he cant live it without me in his mind
i dunt want him to. :(
Birthday wishesbecause i wanted t share them with you :Dfirstly, i wished t be healthy and always done well in my study
secondly, i wished i could be jim's wife in future :D
i quess somehow i still wanted it so much
actually i've made my wishes infront of my cousin
& i did say them out too
my cousin said im a baichi :D
now then i realised i've been so selfish
i'd only made wishes for my own self
if i can have more wishes..
i wanted t wish that everyone around me would be happy always
father mother wunt quarrel that often
popo and laolao t last :D
anw,
i've posted a lonq post i see.
maybe im way too naqqy
but you must bloq often please? :)
imy :D
